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Name: AlexXandra
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Birthday: 11/9/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: soccer, hanging with friends, movie and mall, eating, running, watching T.V, sleeping, just plain be
Expertise: Procrastination, Sarcasm, Xanga, Staying up all night, Sleeping all day, and... Listening.
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AIM:  bowlingforstick
AIM:  soccerrocker933
Yahoo:  yorki_numbutz89
Yahoo:  uptightbiotch04
Member Since:
7/6/2004
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| So, I posted this on my Facebook, but in case anyone still looks at xanga...
I cannot believe this is the end. I’ve had such amazing times and memories and I’ve met some of the best people anyone could ever meet and I am blessed to even be part of a chapter in their lives. Cheesy, I know but so true.
So much has changed it’s hard to even think of losing all the people going away. I, myself am staying home and going to TCC (Texas College of Champions, haha) to do my basics. I have figured it out and I can finish my freshman year by the end of December if I work at it. I have figured out what GPA I need to be able to transfer to UNT (my college of choice) when I finish and what classes will actually transfer for what I aspire to do. But so many people are leaving. Brittany Parker, whom I have known since the first grade, is going to UT, she graduated IB in the top 10% of our class, she is amazing and I am going to miss that girl greatly. Matt Adkins will also be attending UT and though I haven’t known him as long, I will miss him all the same and I love that kid more than he’ll ever know. He’s my superhero, my Mattmann. :]
 Matthew Ryan Adkins
Brittany Michelle Parker
My best friend, Miss Chelsea Troupe however will be close, residing at UNT along with MANY other close friends of mine and I do plan to visit them as much as possible and I WILL NOT FALL APART from MY FD3, my best friend, my sister at heart, Miss Chelsea Troupe. I won’t. You can disagree but I just won’t.
My FD3
As I look back at pictures and videos and memories, I wish I could go back and treasure every moment just to get a taste of what things were. So much has been gained and lost in these past few years and when I reminisce I can’t fathom how the end of the beginning came so abruptly.
Sophmore Year Jenni & Me sophmore year
Junior Year; Locker Room
Hear no, See no, Speak no Oh, Photography
Texas Roadhouse
We are graduating on Saturday. After Thursday, we don’t have to step one foot into a Trinity High School classroom unless we choose. No more tardies, no more courtyard, no more stairs and hills that never seem to end, no more stupid assemblies about abstinence and no more pep rallies unless we choose to wake up and go (which I SO am to a select few). We are no longer a part of the Trinity High School student body but are now alumni of Trinity High School and we have our own section at the pep rallies if we choose to go. We will no longer need a hall pass if we choose to go visit the teacher of our choice and we can use the water fountains and wander the hall whenever we choose to do so.
Our asking days are over and our doing days are here. The time to figure things out on our own has come and mommy and daddy and teacher won’t be there to walk us through every step of the way. Scared yet? I am, but that’s not even why.
I’m terrified of losing all of my friends, these people whom I have known since before I can remember, since I went by “AlexXandra” and not “Alexx”. The people in which I have memories with and pictures and inside jokes, these people leaving is what scares me. I know I have many more amazing people to encounter in my life but some people I am leaving behind, or rather they leaving me, I have only known for what seems to me, too short of a time. And to be losing them already? I am not fond of this.
 Chas, Bean, Alycia, Me
Bonnie, Troupe, Me
Best Prom Date EVER
Troupe, Me, Parker
Hotelll :]
One of these amazing people is Mr. Dyllon Basiloy. He’ll be going off to basic on August 11 for the marines and I’m still not accepting that. ;] And Devin Thompson. I’ve only known the kid for a little over a year but it feels like I’ve known him my whole life. And you’d think we have know each other for forever when we’re together. But luckily he’ll be at College of Champions with me. :]
Me & Dyllon Me & Devin
I think in all my years at Trinity, my senior year has had the most impact on me and my life. Though last January during my junior year, I suffered a great loss, this year has been the most emotional and insane. I’ve lost and gained and lost again and gained back so many people and the harshness of reality has hit me finally, and the beauty of it has blanketed me. But despite the drama, the tears, the fights, and the broken hearts we all shared, this year has been one of the most amazing I have had. The laughter, the late nights, the football games, the hugs and make-ups, the kisses and all the fun just outweighs everything that has caused those tears and broken hearts. And I have you all to think for that. Every person that has contributed this year has been amazing and taught me so much that I need to know to go through life. Whether it be a teacher, a friend, a guy I liked or a guy I thought I cared for but realized was dumb (lol), or a friend whom I thought was my friend but turned out not to be; I have learned from every person and for that I thank all of you.
I’ve been saying I’m more than ready to graduate and have been anxiously counting down the days until I can walk across that stage and call myself a true Graduate of Trinity High School, but just these past few days have I realized what a big event this actually is in mine & our lives. After this summer everything changes… well not everything but so much does that it will have a great impact on every single person that walks that stage and shakes our principal’s hand. (What’s her name? lol I still think Mr. Cargile should stand there, I want the opportunity to shake HIS hand.) And here I am being so worried about how everyone leaving is going to impact me but I cannot even begin to fathom how they will feel going to a completely different city and even state to start their lives. I’ll pray for each of them/you.
In my opinion, our class of 2008 was truly an amazing one. We all come together when it matters and we all stand together no matter what. We are the class that got to see both of our State Championship games and say “yeah, that’s MY school”. Not only that, but we got to play Southlake and pretty much own them until the last few seconds which was COMPLETELY undeserving and BS, excuse my language. We deserved that and we earned it. We are the class that left a print in our school and the hearts of our teachers. Our maturity and teamwork became known and envied and we helped carry the BEAT BELL tradition, not that it was hard. ;] We are Trinity. We are Trojans. And no matter where we go that is one thing that will never change.
-Alexx :]
I'd put more pics but I'm sleepy.
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I think I'll go to
Boston... Wouldn't it be great if you actually could pick everything up and just start over completely?? Sometimes I wish I could more than anything. Lately, I haven't been myself. I'm doing things I swore I never would and I'm not ever happy really. Sometimes I am... there's certain people that make me happy: Alycia, Troupe, Kage, Val, Trish, etc and some others but one of the people that makes me happy, I'm not allowed to see. Whatever. I'm quickly becoming one of those girls I make fun of and I hate it. I never realized how easy it is to fall into this whirlpool of wrong decisions. I can see people I'm shaming and dissappointing the people that I'm close to... More imporatanly I know grandpa wouldn't be happy with the way I'm living. And that kills me. It hurts and makes me want to cry. But I feel like I don't have anyone to cry with me. Which makes me hurt even more. If you know me at all, you know I hate "sharing" my feelings and/or "talking" about my feelings because they sound so stupid once I say them out loud, and even when I put them on paper. I don't want people to know I'm not okay, I'm afraid to look weak in people's eyes. I'm more of a "keep it to myself" person. I'm perfectly fine listening to other people while my emotions bottle up inside until one night when I can no longer hold it in, and I completely break down. Lately, the break down part is happening more and more and I hate it. I'm not as strong as I used to be, I'm worn out, I'm tired and I'm sick. Lately it seems like I'm always sick. If it's not one thing it's another, I feel weaker and I look awful. If I'm not curling up in a ball because of my stomach, I'm trying to stay asleep because my throat and head hurt so bad. If neither of those, I'm trying my best to not move because my entire body is aching from all the pain which I have no idea where is coming from. I just hate this. I want to feel better. I want to look better. I want to be better. I'm going to try. I'm going to try. I'm gonna stop all the stupid shit I'm doing and I'm going to try my best. ----- in the light of the sun, is there anyone? oh it has begun...
oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
this world you must've crossed...you said...
you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...
essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across
an open field,
when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who cry
when they see you
you said...
you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...
she said i think i'll go to boston...
i think i'll start a new life,
i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
i'll get out of california, i'm tired of the weather,
i think i'll get a lover and fly em out to spain...
i think i'll go to boston,
i think that i'm just tired
i think i need a new tow, to leave this all behind...
i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset,
i hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice...
boston...where no one knows my name
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I love you but OMG you're driving me insane.
I need space!! But I'll never get that, will I? Thank God I have her: 
K so here's what's new: - single. =]
- hate my stomach.
- love my friends.
- miss my grandpa.
- need summer. so, not much.
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why, he's amazing. =] 
Like really amazing. Wow, I'm luckyyy.
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I've been sick for almost two weeks. I feel like total crap and it's annoying and I'm so tired of it.
"So sick, so sick of being tired.
And oh so tired of being sick."
-TBS
I miss Grandpa. I miss his warmth, his hugs, his hands, his eyes. I miss the way he looked at me and the way he said "I love you baby." No one could convince me that they loved me like he could. I miss my hero. I'm not strong enough without him. I need him back. This isn't fair.
Sorry if I seem like I'm complaining or whining but I just don't have any one to talk to and yeah. Whatev.
I just want my everything back.
   
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